Really.

What's really frustrating is that it happens all the time. We have plans to do something and then either I don't get a phone call or something else comes up or because someone has to work or doesn't feel like going out (read: come over and hang out), I get stood up.

It's frustrating because you are the last of my three boys in town. Yes, it might only be for a while, and yes, I am crossing my fingers one of you (yes, you) comes back here, but you are here now. And that was exciting for me. Instead of loosing all three of you, I still have one left. The problem is, it doesn't feel that way.

I'm sorry if you read this and it hurts your feelings because that certainly isn't my intention, but understand where I am coming from in that I just want to be able to hang out. I miss you (all three of you, really) and the fact that you're still in town and I never see you -- something is wrong there.

So -- please don't break plans with me. I could have done something else tonight and turned it down because we had plans. Yes, I understand things do come up, but you still could have come over tonight.

All I'm asking is that if you make plans with me, please don't stand me up. It hurts more than you think.


(And to the other two of you who are not in town, I miss you both so much you have no idea.)

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Damn I hate being a girl and crying all the time.